Woohooo! My other half, Craig, is most likely going to stay on another few months! Yayyy! I'll be toast without him, so of course I'm pleased.


I wrote this last night for another site...but it's really just a blog in forum clothing. Sooo...

Sometimes I hate my life. I want to move away from everything I know and start fresh. Some would call that running away from my problems, but I don't think so. I think the big problems would either follow me or wait for me, and I could start fresh and change the smaller ones. There's nothing wrong with a new zip code every once in a while.

My work (kidney dialysis) is at times worthwhile and often not. Roughly 1/3 of the people I work with are wack jobs. Gratefully, none of them work nights, but I have to deal with them in the earlier part of the day. I am so incredibly tired of incompetence and laziness being acceptable. Not to mention neurosis on all levels. It's horrifying, I swear. I want to go somewhere all new, and not make friends with almost anyone I work with. Some people are destined to become your friend, but most I could do without in a professional setting, you know? Right now I am dealing with a new manager who has made it clear she loathes "young techs and tech aides." I am a tech, in case you were wondering, and I am 25. In medicine 25 is relatively young, and considering how she treats me I am obliged to think I am in that category. She's just a b*tch, she really is. It's hard not to get offended, she has no idea of my or some of my "young" colleague's capabilities. Furthermore, I have been in medicine since I was 19, I've dealt with years of crap for being a kid, it's a sore spot with me I'm afraid. I believe she is such a nasty wh*re because she is feeling old, trapped, and bitter. And that's okay with me. As Norman Bates said in Psycho, we create our traps.

Which is why I want to move. And come next spring, I'll be ready to transfer from my two year school to a four year, yay! I'm trying to figure out how and where though. I could get into most schools, but I want to live somewhere both fabulous and relatively inexpensive. Does that exist? I live in Northern California right now, its oohhh so expensive, almost anything would seem cheap to me. Any ideas?

But then I find something I like about this area again and suddenly I feel like clinging to it. What to do?

I have a bad case of the blahhhs...