here's the lyrics to one of my two favorite songs...

How can I go home With nothing to say I know you're going to look at me that way And say what did you do out there And what did you decide You said you needed time And you had time You are a china shop And I am a bull You are really good food And I am full I guess everything is timing I guess everything's been said So I am coming home with an empty head You'll say did they love you or what I'll say they love what I do The only one who really loves me is you And you'll say girl did you kick some butt And I'll say I don't really remember But my fingers are sore And my voice is too You'll say it's really good to see you You'll say I missed you horribly You'll say let me carry that Give that to me And you will take the heavy stuff And you will drive the car And I'll look out the window making jokes About the way things are How can I go home With nothing to say I know you're going to look at me that way And say what did you do out there And what did you decide You said you needed time And you had time

I know that this means something to one of you. Sounds familiar, huh? Weird. Every once in a while I'll come across something that is so descriptive of the way it was that it's creepy sorta.

Anywho, I just got off the phone with my cousin Anne. It was really great, I found myself talking about some of the stuff that's been keeping me up at night. God, what a gift. I mean, how many people even care? And how many people can you really unburden yourself with?

So Lewis is sitting and looking down at me from this bar stool thingie. He looks ohhh so adorable. His eyes are closed and he's mellow, pretending like he's sleeping. The funny thing is though, I don't think he approves of my music. He's all cute and purry, but his ears are laid back. Psycho... I'm beginning to agree with him though, maybe Weezer'll improve the situation. Ahh, much better. The ears are locked in the forward and upright position.

So here it is Sunday night and I have to work tomorrow and I really don't want to. Huge surprise, no? The weekend off has been nice. I'm stressed, and work doesn't particularly help. But hey, it kinda makes time fly. And I have a feeling this is going to be an interesting week. Hmmm.

current music: you had time by ani difranco
current mood: melancholy (it's the song, beautiful and perfect, but reminds me of sad times)