Are you content with your life? I mean, everyone wants to change something...but are you for the most part content with your life? Or do you spend hours wishing away the life you have and wanting another? What happens if you get to the end, look back and realize you missed out on years of your life wishing for something you never got? So how do you give up on that which you've wanted for so long? Life is like a smashing, hopefully long and rambling road trip. I feel like wishing for another life is like spending your road trip worrying about the drama at home and not enjoying where you're at. This is lame because you miss out on all the tacky roadside attractions like The Place Where You Can Drive Through The Middle Of A Tree (been there), The Biggest Ball Of Twine In Minnesota (haven't been yet), and the like. Some of the changes I desire I can make happen. This is lovely, I'm well on my way with most of them. Cool. But some of my most longed for I have no control over. Not so cool. I am going to become a physician, control is good. I want to be able to fix things, it aggravates the hell out of me when I can't get what I want for myself.

Don't get me wrong. I am happy with a lot of my life. It's just that there are certain things that are very important to me that I don't have and cannot acquire for myself. So I guess it isn't so much that I wish for another life, it's just that I wish for certain things, yes? Isn't it still time wasted though? Maybe so, but it doesn't appear to be going away any time soon. *sigh*