Good Day....

Lately I've been miserable that I haven't been able to sit at home and do nothing (or even something!) all day in months. So today I did. It was loverly. I laid around and knit, watched Eddie Izzard, took a bath, and when I felt like going out for a drive, I did. *sigh* It was perfect. While out I received a call from my old friend, Rudy. It seems he has fallen in love. I've never heard him sound as he does now, I'm ever so glad for him. He deserves the best. I told him about my present situation with clingy, desperate people. I love Rudy because he knows me pretty damned well and offers a different perspective, one I miss now that we've grown apart. Rudy contributed to who I am today, I'm not sure how much. It's nice to have his input. As I drove I thought about life and who I've become since I knew Rudy before. I know what I want for myself and I know that I have to count on myself to get me there. The best thing about being alone is that no one has control of my life but me. No one can stop me from getting what I need out of life but me. Now if I can just save me from myself. :-P

I have a new dream... One day I want to open a yarn/knitting book store/cafe. Somewhere cold and grey, rainy, Seattle-ish. Or maybe somewhere close to my roots. Somewhere oceany. That'd work as well.

I have all these wants, needs, dreams. Some I feel like I can wait years and years for, others I want to be working towards right now. Where is this all going to take me, I wonder? Where am I going to wind up?