Yayyy!

I loove this birthday. It's a lot happier than last one! So Rachel came over yesterday and brought me an absolutely exquisite chocolate cheesecake birthday cake, a beautiful daffodil plant, and YAYYYYYY! A subscription to WEEKLY WORLD NEWS!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! I have wanted a subscription to this paper for hmmm about 9 years! And because Rachel is just the most wonderful friend EVER she remembered! Isn't that fabulous! EEEEEE!!!!!!!1 I swear, it's too goo to be true!

After, I went to my parent's house for an early birthday dinner. It was divine, they got me some really fabulous stuff, I swear, this is the birthday of getting the stuff I've wanted forever! Sooooo cool! They even got me those rubber duck towels for my new bathroom. I always meant to buy 'em but never did cause they're kinda expensive. But I looove rubber ducks! SMASHING! Annnd, they got me a cell phone. Huzzah!!! Verrrry cool. It has all sorts of nifty features that I may or may not figure out. HOW COOL! I love my fam-damily (including Rachel).

PROCRASTINATION!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH! I am soooooo slacking off just now. I reallllly don't feel like getting up and functioning. I'm just really not into that. I think instead I need to stumble across a large sum of cash and pay a mess of muscle-bound people to do all this for me. Yes, I think that's definitely more suitable. *Sigh*

Is anyone secretly in love with me and wants to prove their undying affection by coming over, sorting, packing, and cleaning my house? Anyone? No? Damn.

go to www.jackiemason.com and just try and tell me he doesn't look like a corpse!

My dsl has been sloooooooooooooooooooooow all day. Blah. Ooooh, I went to ASL today. It was divine. I'm about a zillion and a half times better off than everyone else, thank you Mel. The instructor is very cool, he's deaf, and he's funny as hell. He's fabulous, actually. Damn-o I miss the Deaf World.

So what else? Egads, I had an EXHAUSTING week. Four days in a row kicks my ass, but I'll get used to it. It's beautiful to be off, I'm trying to get my homework done and a lot of the sorting, packing, and getting rid of stuff done. All that basically tomorrow, because Sunday I'll go up and see my parents for an early birthday dinner and laundry. Thank God I've got the time off to do it all.

I dunno...I'm sure I have plenty to say but it's lurking beneath the surface at the moment. Sorry kids, this one isn't too terribly entertaining....

*yaaaawn*

So all day I spent stressing about my stupid math assignment. You see, it's due tomorrow and I had two problems I just couldn't quite make sense of. I mean, I knew how to do them I thought, but the answers didn't make sense, right? So since I live so far away from school and couldn't just drop by for office hours, I emailed my instructor, Roger. Roger is maybe the best math teacher I've ever had. Yeah, I think so. He got me through one or two other classes at the top of the class. Yes, he is in fact a miracle worker. Anywho, he emails me back, right? And after stressing all day about two lousy points he tells me that both of my solutions and methods for solving were exactly correct. Nice job, he says. Egads.

Today at work I heard one of the coolest lines ever. I'll grant that it isn't something you hear everywhere, but that's part of what makes it so cool. "I want a girl who will give me a kidney." I love words and I love the things people say. I love that I have created the kind of life for myself where I hear people say things like that, or things like "I seem to be drooling and I don't know why..." Two very different comments, but both equally interesting. I don't think that most people hear things like that, I really don't. And even if they did they wouldn't really notice. I don't think most people really hear each other, you know? They should, though, it's awfully entertaining.

Time Flying

How amazing. It's hitting me how much time has gone by while I was just trying to get by. It feels like a year, maybe, but it's actually been more than two. Last night I was driving home thinking how little it mattered if I got pulled over. See, I've been worried about cops nearly every time I've driven for the last year almost, so it's odd to be all street legal again. How fabulous. It got me thinking about the last time (and actually the only time) I was pulled over. That was like two years ago. Unbelievable. I feel like all that time was a dream, sort of. Life, covered by some sort of veil. It's interesting, in going back to school, I feel like I have returned to where I left off almost. It's cool, it's all still there waiting for me. And I'm still here for better or worse. Will we ever know why?

WOOHOO! Car insurance!

I'm TIRED! What a week. I've had an icky cold all week and been working and going to school almost every day this week. SICK! I'm thrilled to pieces to be back in school, but damn-o it's a lot of driving. This week was busier because it was the first week, it'll be easier next week. Not to mention I won't be sick.

So YAY! I'm insured again! I just got Progressive Insurance. K and I used to have it, it's fabulous when you need it. I've been stressing for a year now. Egads. But no mas! Smashing. And, thanks to the PTO cashout that finally came, I think I'm going to get a cheapy stereo put in my carmobile. DUCKY! Things are looking up.

moving again....

I've done this too much. I started to get kinda furklempt about moving again, I mean it really does lick to have to tackle the seemingly insurmountable task of it all. But it's occurred to me now that I've started that I shouldn't be bitching at all. I'll grant that the packing, sorting, cleaning, and worrying if my fucked up scam artists of property managers will screw me on the deposit is lame. It really is. But what about the rest of it? I have an absolutely wonderful house I'm moving into, everything I've wanted for all this time. I'm going to have Winston with me. I'm actually going to own most of this fabulous furniture that I've been borrowing. I have a whole month to deal with the packing b.s. And I'm okay now. Last time I had to pack up a house things were different. It was a chilly Thanksgiving, I was sick with a cold, and I was all alone. Anyone who loved me was hours away and I had essentially no way of getting to them. The person I planned to spend the rest of my life with was in a psych hospital being visited by her girlfriend. I was surrounded by my pets that I loved so much, but I knew that in a few days I was going to have to give them all up. I had only a few days to pack our stuff, and I had nowhere to go when it was packed. I didn't know how I was going to get through the next five minutes let alone the next month. Yikes.

I Still Love You
Ya thought this was it
True love had arrived
So I fell in
What a big surprise
So I bought you a ring
'N I asked you to wear it
So when I found it
On the bathroom sink
I should have known
I was in for it
How do I release this
How do I let you go
How do I mend my heart
When I feel so low
'N how do I talk to you
Without crying
How do I let you go
When I still love you
I still love you
Ya I still love you
So I don't know if I can
Be just your friend
Damn you for trying
'N fuck you for stand there smiling
But I know what it's like
To not be able to feel
'N I know what it's like
Ya to just
Kiss someone you make em' fall in
Love with you
'N then you walk away
Ya to just
Make somebody come a little
Closer so you can
Push them away
How do I release this
How do I let you go
How do I mend my heart
When I feel so low
'N how do I talk to you
Without crying
How do I let you go
When I still love you

I Love Happy Bunny

Tonight Gotti bought me a Happy Bunny mouse pad. It's a good thing because before now I had an odd Star Wars one. It isn't that I dislike Star Wars. On the contrary, I sort of enjoy them now and then. But to have a Star Wars mouse pad? I'd say it gives rather the wrong impression. Ahh what can I say? It was free. Anywho, my new one is ever so improved. Keen. It's the one that says "cute but kind of strange" So true, no?

So I'm having a good day. My day started with a phone call from Gotti, it was keen. I kinda fooled around and did nothing in particular for most of the day, ran a couple of errands, nothing too inspiring until this evening when Gotti and I went out. We had fun. But I got two and one-half really faaaaaaaaaabulous pieces of news today. First, I'm going to be able to buy my couch and the fabulous antique tables I've been borrowing from Bryan all year for less than it woulda cost me to get a cheaper new couch. Smashing! I couldn't afford tables like these, they're beautiful old wood, verrrry nice, they weigh like a million pounds each approximately. Bien bien. So then, just now when I got home from dinner, etc. I had a message waiting for me from Craig saying that he's been extended. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! How FUCKING COOL! My little friend is going to stay! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO! Hot damn! Aside from having one of my good friends here longer, this also means I get to work with a competent RN. Imagine! Yeah, this means ol' Chester got the axe. I won't go into it but I think we can all heave a collective sigh of relief about that one, pets. Oh...that other 1/2 of good news...I realized that even though my little furkid Lewis gnawed through the stupid speaker wire, I can just use my little headphone thingies! If I were inclined electronically I would have realized this immediately, and not suffered the past weeks with no music, but no. Just now. But better now than never. So cool.

I got a place!

Yaaaaayyy!!! I got a smashing place yesterday, put down the holding deposit and EVERYTHING! The for rent sign is officially out of the window now, baby! This is by far the best place I've had since moving out. So, in a month and four days I will officially be out of here! COOL! God, I can't wait to get out of this wretched Nazi complex. EEEEEEVIL. But only a little longer. WOOHOOO! My new place even has a big back yard for Winston, totally fenced, a washer dryer hook up (OMG), and a gas stove. So help me, a gas stove. *angels singing*

This place is PERFECT! PERRRRFECCTTTT!!!!

And then I went to school, got my tuition waived, this is the first time I've been eligible to apply as an independent, and registered for classes. Yayy! Classes! I'm so happy to be back in school.

So all is well except with work. I'm always worried about what the boss is going to do. She freaks me out. She always treats me like I'm the worst employee in the free world, but I'm really not. Maybe one of them, but not the very worst! I'm kidding...relax. Anywho, she already dislikes me enough, right? But then she called the other night, late, almost 11pm, and I answered "Satellite..." but I didn't say my name. Let me start of by saying that at that time of night the only calls we get are friends and family. So when the voice on the other end of the line said "and who is this?" I replied with "well that depends, who is this?" in my best smart ass form. Well, egads. As I'm sure you've all guessed by now, it was, in fact, my boss. Wow. She really didn't see the humor in the whole thing, although I can't imagine why. At any rate, she berated me for like five minutes, you could tell she was totally disgusted. See, I'm afraid she would fire someone over shit like this. Me at least, and maybe a few others. So then, I get a message on my answering machine from Craig telling me that he wanted to tell me about the day and something I should know. Something I should know?! Egads! What the hell is that? Am I going to be axed? God help me if I am. Ugh. So despite the thrill and elation of the new house and school, I'm scared to death. I'm going to go in early under the guise of talking to her about my school schedule and feel it out. YIKES!

It's been a while...

Blahhhh.

Life is very, very stressful right now. I have the usual money worries, and even more so I am worried as hell about finding a new apartment. Or house. Or whatever. I need to put in my 30 day's notice in a couple of weeks, and I have nowhere to go, as yet. And the credit thing is going to be problematic, of course. Whatever. I'll get there. I hope. :-P

So I'm breaking my own rules and making new year's resolutions. What the hell..might as well go for it..almost any resolve is good, new year's or otherwise. Change is bueno.

I want to be more financially stable, meaning a savings account/safety net, improved credit, etc.

I want to be debt free. (This is not necessarily redundant)

I want to only smoke on special occasions (i.e. road trips, mainly). I'm really there now, but I want to keep it that way.

And the requisite eat better, exercise more thing. I really don't want diabetes...it's so no good.

And we're off!